me

2006-04-22T20:21:00.000+08:00

I'm no longer a civilian. Currently, I'm in bmtc sch 2 N coy plat 4. I've got an ingrown toenail and then I was excused for 3 days. A lot of people think that I "chao keng". But wah lao, its damn pain lah. Funny sia, my friend said got people tell him I chao keng cos I excused still can run to toilet damn fast. lol. I kena by the sgt quite a lot la. I dio section i/c cos I bed 1, aiyah then I damn slack la, not as garang as some others. Aiyah they want to go cmd sch den go la. sigh, I hope I can make more friends la, and survive this. ippt cat I do 16 situps only, stomach cramp. Whats happened to my english.
Ok , this is REC THOMAS CHIA signing off,

2026
220406

2006-02-02T20:03:00.000+08:00

I'm sure many have heard about Mrs Che. If not, I've heard shes stricken with leukaemia. Sad fact, that. If you have B+ blood you can contact her daughter. Sms with your name , ic and contact no. to Esther@97405174. For all those who were her students, you know she was the most caring bio teacher we ever had. Lets try to do something.

Someone teach me html. I might be moving to lj. I dont know. Whats this speck of dust in the network they call the net.

So much has happened, and don't ask me why I've not written about it. ITS MAPLE ITS MAPLE. A childish 2D mmorpg that has so many kiddos playing it. Me included. Its addictive and stupid, but ah well.. Whats there left to do? I'm just stuck in my little malaysian terrace waiting for the sun to set and rise again the following day. And don't ask me why i havent got a job. I'm going to!

I kinda miss playing the drums and all things percussion. As well as the monotony of school life. Which, compared to this life now, does not seem all that monotonous. I do miss doing (or not doing) my tutorials, and attending (or not attending) the lectures in NJC. Nice place, that.

2006-01-16T19:23:00.000+08:00

I like watching good movies. elizabethtown is one. Its a simple story about simple love, a missed person and a road trip. Nice one there.

I like the soundtrack too. Tom Petty is good stuff =)!

2006-01-12T22:46:00.000+08:00

I need a job, I need to memorise the freaking test route, I need to get a life, I need to find more meaningful stuff to do, I need to get into NUS med or get a scholarship.

I NEED SO MANY THINGS.

ABOVE ALL,
I need you

2006-01-05T17:01:00.000+08:00

I am actually one happy person.
driving is stressful and feet-hurting.

2006-01-01T00:55:00.000+08:00

In the year 2006 I resolve to:

be happy being me.

2005-12-20T11:28:00.000+08:00

-AWAY ON BAND TOUR-
be back on the 27th !
HAPPY CHRISTMAS DUDES

2005-12-11T17:51:00.000+08:00

i cant even write poetry now

2005-12-11T16:59:00.000+08:00

I feel horrible. Please whisk me away. Please, I need a break. When can things happen the way they should? I'm just 18 and im not really looking forward to what life has to offer.
i should go back to sleep

2005-12-10T10:51:00.000+08:00

took 2 hours getting there, 2 hours back, didnt play a single note. Ah wells, thats band life for you.
paying a good 1075, wonder why im doing that. WHY
And now I'm facing another big shit. I might not be able to complete the driving shit before NS.
why must this happen to me lah. already my holidays are destroyed. isnt that enough alr? dsfaasjsadglknadsg

2005-12-08T16:18:00.000+08:00

Just watched cinderella man on dvd. Good show, that. Moved me quite a bit. Crowe's acting is superb, as is Zellweger's. Good movies are supposed to be like that.

Passed the horrible driving theory test today. I woke up at 6plus and it wasnt until 1120 when I was actually seated for the exam. Sheesh. Wasted a good half of my day.

And my back hurts, side effects? symptoms of?

and, I hate my hair

2005-12-06T22:06:00.000+08:00

its one of those days where I just exclaim,"WHAT THE F?"

2005-12-06T02:34:00.000+08:00

I remember the days we used to hang out

2005-12-06T02:25:00.000+08:00

you know, I really hate being ill.

2005-12-04T20:52:00.000+08:00

First you wish for a fun filled holidays, next I find myself wishing i'd never wished that. For once, a quiet and boring holidays where I have all the time in the world to myself seems perfect.

I am sick, ill. whatever you call it. Viscous phlegm is stuck all over my red and inflammed throat and tonsils. I want to cough the darn thing out but each time I cough it feels as if my throat is coming apart. I'm happy the sore eyes are gone. A day ago, I couldnt even open my eyes when I woke up. Pus and everything gooey had formed a crust that sealed my eyelids shut. I am feeling so crap. crap crap crap.

I'm missed many a band practice already. I need to practise. Sometimes I wonder why it is always about band. For the past 6 years, everything has always been about band. Is it really worth the sacrifice? Do I love it that much to give away most of my holidays. My parents tell me to just cancel the whole darn thing and call it off, but would it be fair to my friends? I really dont know. I'm feeling quite dispirited about the whole thing already.

I'll just go close my eyes and dream about the holiday I've always longed for once again. Maybe if I sleep enough it'll just come true/

2005-12-03T10:22:00.000+08:00

i feel sick. =(. cra..p

church camp

2005-11-30T21:28:00.000+08:00

I just came back from church camp.

"Its at the workplace where the world meets the church."

The camp was really insightful and great. I had lots of fun getting to know more people esp some aunties and uncles. Its a pity such things end pretty quickly.

All i can say is that I miss her.
Quite badly.
:(

well, its over

2005-11-25T18:30:00.000+08:00

A levels are over. and they really ended with one great band. I was raped by chemistry s paper lah. It was so bad, I was just helpless and hopeless. I left an entire question blank, which is 20 out of 100 marks, plus, i couldnt do the rest too, so. well, 100 bucks just went down the drain.

I'm supposed to rejoice and feel happy now am I not, but I just cant help wondering what I'll be doing next when this new chapter of my life is written. JC life is officially over, cept for prom,which by the way, I am not in eager anticipation of. Having so many events over these few days is more than I can take. Well, thats life right. busy busy busy. How I wish I could escape from here to some deserted island and just eat, sleep and wake up in the company of her. Sigh. too bad I'm beached here

2005-11-23T01:16:00.000+08:00

Its like reading ranon's recount of all those wonderful memories make me think long and hard about what memories I've kept. After thinking long and hard, I found that I remember...

pri sch:
When carmen called my dad to tell him I had fever when I was too sick to do so
Terence coming to my house to stay for like a few days at a time, and how we fought with his bro..etc
Fighting with chin hong at the field and .. ok nvm
I did fight a lot, somehow I always lost. I wonder why
not doing my chinese xizi and english penmanship
this big crush that i screwed up
emptying my pencil case, and then stuffing it with spiders from some obscure pipe thing
lousy psle grades

sec sch:
lohwei faking his name as peter goh
calling kel a buddha, and he got angry naturally.
all of us periodically falling for the same girl
getting conned by jin cheng to join the band
dropping the cymbals
staying at vek's
almost becoming a gangster
going for lunch at brader's
getting my first osiris
getting sick at chalet, and having ranon and yanbin look after me
skinny dipping (haha)
having our tables joined and making little placards placed on the desk
calling minhow bian tou fa, and how it spread like wildfire

jc:
orientation fever
getting to know hang
getting pangseh-ed by hang
staying over at sze's
getting pangseh-ed by sze eventually
fav's popularity
asking questions during lectures
catching balls with red plastic pail thingies and measuring oscillations
crickets jumping all over the place during bio spa
weiying's nice house and the pool party
playing squash with friends, being late for class because of that
having dinner with ben after band
Getting sick after eating modanyaki(tastes like vomit)

Some are constantly being formed and reformed.

2005-11-22T11:27:00.000+08:00

attempting to listen to some uplifting songs to kickstart my day. Its kinda late, but better late then never!
and it is so difficult to continue in this neverending story that is the A's
I am going to study!
Now as I await the long-awaited holidays. It seems to dwindle. I have to drive, band, shop and what else. There is just not enough time to do the things I want to do.
I just hope that it will be sweet while it lasts.
This is when you know how quickly time passes, and how much you have left in this world.
I know I'm young, but I'm feeling it already.
They say you've started to die since the day you've been born.
Well, its high time I started living
everyday, a lovely day

2005-11-21T18:27:00.000+08:00

I can feel it, its almost over!
C'mon baby we can do it.
OOh OOh AAh AAh
but now i really want AAAAAhhhhhhhh

a new chapter?

2005-11-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

So many ways my life could turn out to be
Its when you are just going into your 20s where a life of opportunities abound
soon we'll just realise that its not all out its said to be
dreams and aspirations last for like maybe a few years
then you will be sick of chasing them
some will succeed, well I hope i wont have trouble getting shelter, or with my bills
so many ways this could turn out
I hope it wont be a major screw up
and one day i'll wake up,
too old to set things right.
thats when I'll just have to live with it.
Oh c'mon the A's are not even over yet

2005-11-05T17:22:00.000+08:00

This is now. Omg, bye blog. Cya in a month.
I dont want to die this A's
Not now please.

2005-10-28T22:50:00.000+08:00

two words, to rn. I was wrong to share my world. Some things are best kept to oneself.

2005-10-23T14:19:00.000+08:00

Eschaton D'amour they call it

Hitherto, poetry was for all things perfect and picturesque
Like the coveted clouds, majestic mountains and streams of endless deluge
And of course,ardour for all romance and concupiscence
Sad to say, the inundation was for all things perfect and picturesque
a mish mash of delusion
so shall be the conclusion

2005-10-21T01:48:00.000+08:00

I know this is nothing new, no bullshit anyone wants to see. but what the heck.
I am so fuckin scared...

2005-10-19T03:16:00.000+08:00

Mr Lim and the 6C people
I kinda like this picture

2005-10-18T16:27:00.000+08:00

hitherto, I have led
A life, not my own
Will I take the reins now?
To lead one worthy of me

The whole earth

2005-10-16T12:21:00.000+08:00

The whole earth is full of your glory!
You reign victorious,
Over all!
For Great is the lord and worthy of praise
Life up your voice and life up his name
The heavens declare,
Our God is the King
We join in the song the angels sing

You reign victorious
Over all

2005-10-15T19:30:00.000+08:00

Ever fear losing someone you never knew?
yes

end to education

2005-10-14T01:17:00.000+08:00

Monday will be the day that concludes my JC education - the end of yet another phase of my life.
I should say that in this short course of 2 years, I have forged worthwhile friendships, hopefully lifelong. Also, in retrospect it has not been that bad a time spent. I will always remember fondly these memories, and hold them close to my heart as my next path towards my destiny unravels itself.
How apt it is when they say life is a journey. Without these memories I would be but a lonely wanderer as I traipse into the unknown wilderness that is my future.

2005-10-09T13:56:00.000+08:00

Why am I freaking out, and not doing anything about the fact that, the A's are so close I can even smell them. And, btw, it stinks. or rather they stink. Ah wells, they're the passport to an even more stressed up life. yay~

2005-10-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

I am sad

2005-10-05T21:20:00.000+08:00

Gosh I wish I was a dapper young man with a jaunty red hat! On top of that, I wish there was something to kickstart my revision. There is NO time LEFT. 33 freaking days. Its so scary it makes you wanna go WEEEEEEEEEEWAAAAAAAAAOOOOOOO!

2005-09-30T17:45:00.000+08:00

I wanted to get a taste of the highly acclaimed "Fancy Formosa Oolong tea" from The Coffee Bean and the Tea Leaf
For an avid pokka green tea drinker like me, it did sound tantalising. Sad to say, the 6th avenue branch had no stock. I decided to settle for the daily brew - Sumatra dark double roasted. I should say it wasn't that bad. The flavour was full, the smell strong and the aftertaste incredible. Have I become a coffee addict?
Most People go for the chillinos and the ice blended, but I prefer coffee to be taken at warmer temperatures mostly because it's chilled counterparts have lost their rich aroma and taste through the intensive sweeteners as well as crushed ice. Nothing like a cuppa hot coffee to start your day. The bagels are nice too! For S$4.50 a set, I should say it is better than a mac breakfast. Much better.

2005-09-29T22:58:00.000+08:00

A table for three has quite rekindled my faded ambition - to be a plastic surgeon.

All my life, which is not long a time, I have been quite obsessed with beauty, both the notion and the motion. I believe that there is some innate obsession that drives us to the pursuit of beauty, both feeling and looking good can make for quite a sense of satisfaction in life.To make people feel good about themselves starting with how they look seems like quite an appealing career.

Even though electronic engineering might be another option. I doubt I would be able to master the dewey decimel system(is it needed?), and write all those source codes, but i will enjoy tinkering with op-amps, RC circuitry and whatever analogue. However, these obsolete and primitive devices are being phased out with the advent of their digital successors and soon, optical circuitry that makes use of photons rather than electrons. The field of electronics is everchanging and in an accelerated rate I might add, the challenges of not being outmoded are quite daunting.

I prefer making small(or huge, on request) insertions, incisions and injections.
=)
So there i have chosen the triple I's instead of the triple E's.

Then again, I dont really look one

2005-09-28T19:01:00.000+08:00

Its really hard to study even when you are trying so hard. Biology just seems to make no sense after an hour or so of reading and the words seem to look like repeated tessellations, spider's legs jumping about the table. Thats when you know its over.
Math is no better. Right after a good game of badminton, my arms were so weak i couldnt do math. I need exercise.

ahhh. and the library is a bad place to study. too many um. dimpled distractions.

2005-09-27T15:53:00.000+08:00

"hey, so you go about this route everyday too?"

"um.. yeah"

"heh. nv seen ya before."

"=)"

Argh its driving me crazy. Those eyes. *_*

2005-09-23T23:46:00.000+08:00

I know I've had my bouts of depression, but, up till now, nothing comes even close to this. I knew it was coming, but did i get my sorry ass moving? NO. Nows the freaking time, if not now then when.

I really dont want to screw my education up. I'm going to do this whether i enjoy it or not. I need to start working. I hate to, but i have to. I cant take another fall.

Am I going to mug my butts off? Abso-fuckin-lutely|!

2005-09-21T18:29:00.000+08:00

carelessness + lack of preparedness + lack of time = utter devastation
carefulness + preparedness + time management = recipe for success

How I wish the latter were to be true.
Now its just utter devastation for me.
Why does it seem like the end of the road.
Do I make a path, or shall i let it be.

2005-09-21T13:16:00.000+08:00

I cant even access my blog!! you go blogger

2005-09-16T16:56:00.000+08:00

I am so going to put the darn [O] and [H], and the stupid tan inv formula. ARGH. Why... I didnt walk the walk, I tripped tripped. marks down the stupid drain

2005-09-12T13:25:00.000+08:00

One must wonder what the heck im doing online when i have the whole bio option topic staring at me in the face.

what the heck. kinda gross. Its back to coital knowledge extravaganza.

Hahaha. Coitus Interruptus requires much self control

I'll come back to post some poems when I'm done with swallowing all of that Option3 crap. bye

2005-09-08T14:15:00.000+08:00

Time? There is no time left. Someone save me from this misery. I want a new life

2005-09-04T00:52:00.000+08:00

All the elements of a good dream:

Nice girl
Good company
Big adventure
Some chivalry
Happy ending

I'd love to remain the protagonist of that splendid dream.
The truth is, it all ends when you wake up
No matter how much you want to go back to sleep
Or try to pretend to be.

The real elements of everyday living:

Why is beryllium oxide acidic/amphoteric
Why are sieve tube elements devoid of nuclei and vacuoles
Elements of a set, function
(not quite hitting on that funny bone?)

Well, to me
Real life is like a kick in the nuts
The truth is you will never find a hot girl,
if you do, chances are she wont think you're good company
Neither will you find great adventure in your
boring hum-drum 9-15 a day, 7days a week, 365-weekends year.
Nor will there be a chance for you to demonstrate your inner chivalrous nature
that is if you even have one.
A happy ending, I guess thats what we have to see it be.
With that said,
"Wow theres so much in store for me, yeah I'm just going to hit the sack, wake up tomorrow where new opportunities await."
Mostly, I'm just wishing that my dreams(sweet) would never have to come to an end.

airport

2005-09-01T18:50:00.000+08:00

I'm at the airport trying to study w yx
I've figured out that no matter where I go.
studying still sucks!

Well... At least its more conducive than my comfortable abode.
toodledooo

2005-08-31T12:07:00.000+08:00

A brand new day
not many more at that
what can i say
not anymore regret

what will be the dew
for my stroke
that restores, anew
my withered hopes

2005-08-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

"hahah. no.. who is not wierd anw? we all are to some degree"

I hope I am not. Most people perceive me as such.

Bob Marley's music is so light-hearted that it makes you forget about your troubles for a while, maybe just a while.

I have pondered upon a few concepts of Trigonometrical Identities, which I hope to be a master of in a few days. If not now, then when?

1. You have to be able to see the ends, the big picture, the endpoint of what you want to transmorgrify. In the process, one is bound to be lost in the innumerable formulae and substitution. Stay on track, and the path will be lit.

2. Sometimes, to obtain the identity, it is necessary to complicate the initial problem. This can be done by a series of rationalisations using grouping methods. When the blown-up solution is resimplified, the solution becomes apparent.

3. Trigonometrical identities show that how two seemingly different equations are actually identical in nature. The similarity of difference. This is when different perspectives, different solutions can be used to solve problems, when fundamentally, they are derived from the same root principle.

The very principle that I live by, which is to be in the perpetual pursuit of truth and fufillment in life and its purposes. While religion, education and hope of financial stabilty and independence serve as guideposts, till now, the conclusion has yet to surface and will continue to be made more apparent.

2005-08-26T19:32:00.000+08:00

Its amazing what you can find on blogs. Just recently, I found my own picture posted on someone's blog. If it wasnt for hang i wouldnt know. That fella copied it from my friendster account and voila.

Should I bother?

Well, maybe I shouldnt, for there are far worse things to worry about than this.

2005-08-23T23:47:00.000+08:00

if only the world was half as round,
it would disintegrate
into millions of tiny bits of stardust
dancing under the intergalactic luminescence

from the perigee to the apogee,
there is but one true velocity
that which will reach
infinity

2005-08-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

Wong said," Dont be such a KILLJOY."

Well, I dont know. Most people see me as one I guess

Note to

2005-08-16T23:11:00.000+08:00

Note to:

sometimes i shout, i scream
the rage in my eyes gleaming
and all i can do
is bottle up my feelings
of poignance, of rhapsodies
blue and violet and full of fidelity

which is all unwanted

these thoughts of mine
skewer and gore out
the very insides of my heart

exacerbated by time

The agony in it all
emphatically uncalled for
but my unerring instincts
summon my emotions
the war, the inevitable skirmish
of logic and passion
of the mind and the soul

a confluence of paroxyms

berain me o' fall of winter
cold'est of hearts
and i shall know no fear
the grief that toils my weathered heart

ends now

hitherto the love and passion
so strong, so overwhelming
has been the faintest feint
but yet has struck my unarmed spot
chafed am i, morose i have become

soon i will remember

so very soon it will be

To the loveliest of them all
neither roses or autumns are comparable to thee

may your smile warm my winter nights
a'las goodbye

2005-08-15T00:01:00.000+08:00

"War does not decide who is right, it decides who is left." - Bartrand Russel

I just watched the Hiroshima re-run and Asia Remembers the Fallen on CNA. I say it was well worth it.

I'm thankful I did not have to go through the harrowing experience of war.
I hope I will not have to.

2005-08-12T19:49:00.000+08:00

I was sitting at home,
listening to Songs From The Big Chair,
Contemplating about life,
about how things were left to Chance and Circumstance

I banged on my computer, and then I said,"OK Computer..."
Somehow it always seemed to be Indestructable

As I stared into the world outside,
where Sunsets and Car Crashes were abound,
All because some cars had No Brakes

How it was all Leaving Through The Window.
I would want to Stop All the World Now
right from it's Origin of Symmetry.
It was never the Utopia Parkway

Oh pablo honey, where art thou?
You always left me with Beautiful Lumps of Coal in my Mouth
Lets ride the White Pony again sometime soon
along that lonely lane in Page Avenue

So long Astoria...

2005-08-10T23:51:00.000+08:00

Ten fingers on the keyboard typing this
nine minutes to midnight a new day
eight more hours till school starts again
seven to a brand new dawn
six grades I have to jump
five more hours to sleep
four till next week
three weeks left
two exams
one

2005-08-10T14:05:00.000+08:00

no.

2005-08-06T23:55:00.000+08:00

Oh dear shitake
pls unscramble my head,
and the omelette I ate

In the alcove
An unseen shove
by the unpeaceful dove

My my I ponder
Beyond yonder hills so pastoral
will thine heart grow fonder

2005-08-05T15:14:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I feel so down, It comes out of the other side of the earth.

Sometimes I dont know when I will ever know when it will be time for me to do what I was supposed to do.

Sometimes I feel happy just by that fleeting moment.

Sometimes I wonder whether I will get a masterworks kit.

Sometimes my head hurts so much I just go to sleep.

2005-07-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

abound with innumerable phrases

replete with incongrous inanity

under duress from pernicious paroxysms

harassed into insanity

in a realm steeped with drudgery

unable to perceive, to prognosticate

am i incognizant of reality

or just afflicted by mortality

nuances fabricated

a psychological sally of duplicity

driven by the urge to seek tranquility

to seek forth what is not

intangible, mundane paradoxes

an interminable consternation

deride me, my precocious perversity

i shall still wrest

to quell the sinister culprit

that exists in me

even if you fail to construe

admonish you i will not

for madness seeks i not you

2005-07-28T22:17:00.000+08:00

seriously, i see no point in this hopeless endeavour

2005-07-27T23:58:00.000+08:00

If I try to make sense of this mess I'm in
I'm not sure where I should begin.

2005-07-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

I wish this huge rock would just strike the earth and obliterate this sad world together with everything else. That would make my day.

2005-07-24T11:47:00.000+08:00

No lights
No fear
No pain
Nothing

I just let the darkness consume me

2005-07-23T23:13:00.000+08:00

God help me. where are you now...

2005-07-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

I scream, I shout
The words wont come out
It inebriates me
I spiral down into this oblivion
I cant breathe
The darkness, it fills my lungs with death
I take in my last

2005-07-23T22:03:00.000+08:00

wheres my beer,
THIS MISERY
the a's are mocking me now
I'm in the wrong dimension
what the fuck is wrong

2005-07-23T20:16:00.000+08:00

Why am i so effing angry with everything?!!

2005-07-22T16:48:00.000+08:00

i like class 95. cant remember what the titles to all the nice songs so i cant rip em off the net! argh. theres this " Its gonna be alright" smth like that. cant remember. ahhh

2005-07-21T23:16:00.000+08:00

Its weird how a confluence of such degree has led to the effluence of such

2005-07-21T19:29:00.000+08:00

omg. i hate vulgarities. help. oh my. I feel so lost lost lost

2005-07-20T19:09:00.000+08:00

aiyar aiyar blar blar blar
dang dang shitay bang bang
blzzt plat pow wow wow
these are the sounds that surround me now

csafasdfasAsfsadfsNadfidsfsdYsdflhsdfhlsfkdsfOsfsdfUwerwrdsfksdRejksdhfsEsfakhsdfkfdshAlhfspdfsohofdgrDrhgdsjhTfghssHsdpoiemkfsdIsklhsd;gdsfSdflsjfsdS ?

2005-07-20T19:05:00.000+08:00

doing damn dumb deeds deliberately,
demise, detriment, decadence

2005-07-20T13:19:00.000+08:00

I love her larh. she doesnt know it well enough

2005-07-18T21:59:00.000+08:00

Lifes one big fuck and I mean it

2005-07-15T17:32:00.000+08:00

You know the feeling you get when you lose something? Its sinking my heart now. So many times I tell myself I will be more careful the next time. When the next time happens, it just hits me like a sledgehammer. A kick in the nuts, a slap in the face. You just fall harder the next time. There has to be a state of order in my life. It has to begin somewhere.

I have to be strong
I have to learn
I have to do something for myself

In these few months to come,
I'll either make it or break it.
I sure hope everything turns out fine, just like it always has.

2005-07-15T15:31:00.000+08:00

yay i lost my wallet. second time in my whole life, in jc too. argh just when i thought life could not get any worse.

2005-07-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

its not that im being pessimistic. i hate mediocrity! what am i going to do ? for myself

2005-07-14T21:36:00.000+08:00

where the hell are you when I was so down
damn irritaiting when nothing works out well.
i hope the world goes out with a bang. life should end now

wasted123

2005-07-12T17:29:00.000+08:00

I'm just a point of insignificance
in this vastness of void
that attempts to feel existence
the fact is, i'm trying to fill my emptiness with
wrong things.
The fact remains, I need you.

2005-07-10T20:10:00.000+08:00

I wonder whether I will be able to make much use of my passion for drumming in the future. I've always dreamed of being in a altrock band, doing tours and making albums. Ranon always tells me in the end, we'll all just be normal people, leading normal hum-drum lives, having kids, paying bills. I'm not saying this is bad though. I wonder if I'll ever get married with kids.

I just watched this disney movie - the rookie. And there was this piece of indispensible advice. Its ok to think/dream about what you want to do, until it is time for you to do what you're meant to do. I guess this applies here. In the end, I'll just be some other guy who lived and died.

Good things happen only to 1 in a million. Also, I dont think people who look happy doing what they are doing are actually that happy. I just hope I will be happy.

And this is a crappy song by Mcfly - obviously. that is stuck in my head.
Been so many nights now
I find myself thinkin about her no
Cause obviously she's out of my league
But how can I win
She keeps draggin me in
And I know I
Never will be good enough for her
No no
I never will be good enough for her

Thomas, you're 17 going on 18/

2005-07-10T19:45:00.000+08:00

Nostalgia is in the air.
How was my journey in njcsb?
What memories do I bring with me
Or am I just glad that it is over?

Somehow my part was all too insignificant
by comparison
Or maybe I was all along maladroit
It was through my stay here that I've realised
Sometimes you help more by not helping

Will this be the end to my band career?
Or am I on my way to something greater?

I think I will miss my section more than they will ever know

2005-07-09T16:49:00.000+08:00

msn's not working. It keeps saying contact list not available. huh?
either this is a sign for me to start studying, or maybe I wont be online for good

2005-07-08T22:47:00.000+08:00

my life lacks structure, coherence, diligence and lustre.
I hope I find strength to do what I have to, because if I dont, I dont know what will become of all.
Maybe I just need people to believe in me.
I have always believed in myself. Why now? Why this.

Do you even care?
I could use a little hope
for I have none.

over! =(

2005-07-08T21:42:00.000+08:00

So this was how my last concert ended!
Ikea - swedish meatballs! bloody beef! brocoli and 30cents sauce!
Band rm - nice flowers from hanjie and joanne! um puking bag from melvin and oboes! yixian's 1 year old merci chocolate (leftovers frm last etude)! giving junhao's sweets at the atrium.
VCH - nice dinner! almost fell down the steps leading to the changing room. spatial contraints at the percussion area!
Performance - A long concert. good but not exceptional. missed stick flicks and untimely hot shots. well it was a learning experience. i shall not comment on the rest. thanks for those who gave me flowers! =]

Now when the reality sets in. I land myself in a most precarious situation. God, I guess this time I have to do something for myself. Thanks for helping me thus far. I know you still will. Thanks.

this is what happens

2005-07-06T01:08:00.000+08:00

so this is what happens tmr

Morning-swedish meatballs at ikea yum yum yum. Fun brunch at ikea, shopping, buy stuff. Go to band room, pack struments, feel happy. take bus, feel happy. nice food for dinner. ace concert. double encore. feel great after that. hugs smiles woohoo.

or this

morning-pon brunch, go to sch late. start feeling damn moody abt the sucky concert. go there, screw up. no space for percussion, moving, drop stuff. sucky ensemb. solos not well delivered. sucked up. no encores. goodbye and so long. bye band. sucked concert.

What will happen? hahaha.

2005-07-04T19:59:00.000+08:00

This is one of those times I just feel like * . Not that it matters anymore. Nvm I'll live to see a new dawn. I have to say. thinking of * keeps me going.

I have become a new drum machine.

Thank you all those who have taught me the art of rhythm. The reason why my life has revolved around a different planet. Thankyou uncleb, april, azri, arif, mazri, kyoko, victor, leen, sean, stephen, pk, travisb(sorry for stealing your solo, you are the inspiration). Thank you all those who I have taught and in turn learnt something. Also, the sticks which have been with me through all times: ziljian artist series: dennis chambers, trilok gurtu (it died at macritchie!), travis barker. 5A, anti-vibe..etc

The spirit of drumming will always be true

2005-07-02T01:29:00.000+08:00

Theraputic songs include real-plumb (all plumb songs are nice!), firstlove-utada(some say her voice sucks, hell no), odetomyfamily-cranberries(they're tasty, but that accent is really getting to me), madworld-tearsforfears(good shit from donny darko), pureshores-allsaints(I love beaches, hate bitches. haha!) . The way these songs find their way into my heart is pure. Like how sunshine finds the darkness. 1.2.3.4 tatatatatumtum/tumtumtumCHIANG

2005-06-29T17:20:00.000+08:00

lay down your burdens
weary, wayward traveller
make yourself at home

2005-06-23T01:22:00.000+08:00

Looking at the sand in my hourglass
Its turning into water
All those days, hours, seconds pass
I always said, "later."

I really detest muggers
the sheer prospect of endless studying!
I'd really rather be a rugger
honestly, I squirm just even by thinking

Maybe that is the way to live life?
how the education system has moulded us
for our dear lives, an endless strife?
Indeed, it seems to be a curse

This endless paperchase
the multitudes scramble
how sad a case
for this gamble

Our fate lies with these pieces of paper?

contribute!

2005-06-21T23:22:00.000+08:00

To contribute to my guitar fund, please message me now! 1/2 buck(s) will do =D
For more serious contributers, cheques will be accepted! I'm serious.
I really want to get a nice Ibanez with a Vox amp. Second hand ones will set me back at around 600. maybe more.

Ahh. I might settle for a piece of SX trash with mini marshall amps. that will be around 250.

Please. I need money....
Imagine the favour u'll be doing when I turn pro.
I'll remember all of you and give you all a free gig!

2005-06-20T17:37:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna screw this cts up. Shit, I'm so gonna work harder next time. I've let myself down. Shit why am i like that

2005-06-19T15:31:00.000+08:00

Ooooh wheee. GEEZER.

The things people do when they are bored

2005-06-14T19:45:00.000+08:00

Anybody want to give me an idea on what to blog about? Or what you all want to read about?

Recently I'm really irritated with msn. Its like its so difficult to chat when "msg not delivered" comes out. ugh

anw. Theres this crazy guy who thinks he's gonna get natalie. click here to see. hahaa.

Oh gosh. This is turning out to be a most unproductive holiday.
Anybody want to go out?

the cure ?

2005-06-12T22:01:00.000+08:00

Its funny how some bands make fun of other bands' members in their song lyrics. Here, band doesnt mean like njcsb, swiss winds kinda band, but JAMJAMBAZAMMM kinda band. HAHA. This is from Atreyu's The Curse album, "The crimson".

first line:
I feel it welling up inside and Robert Smith lied
Boys do cry and with blood tears in my eyes

I do love the chorus and here it goes:
Will you still hold me when you see what I have done?
Will you still kiss me the same when you taste my victim's blood?
So crimson and red, I feel it flowing from your lips

It's kinda sick. I think I will stop listening to such evil music and go back to my coldplay, postal service, moby, and the like.

So who is this Robert Smith? I think only the likes of Eric know. He's from the band - The Cure, which i happen to have the shirt!

hey

2005-06-12T02:19:00.000+08:00

hey shit i love her!!!

hey

2005-06-12T00:18:00.000+08:00

I wonder why
these thoughts run dry
I find hardly anything worthy
to be posted online.
so long.

2005-06-10T11:54:00.000+08:00

THIS BLOG IS CLOSED FOR GOOD!!! =D

no title

2005-05-31T23:20:00.000+08:00

I hope someday when I look back on my life in NJC, I'll be able to say that I've had a well-spent 2 years.

I've postponed my work-attachment. I guess I'll be attending the Band Camp after all. :).

I hope this wont be a poorly spent holidays.

Lastly I love you!

Music

2005-05-27T20:32:00.000+08:00

Does music really have the power to heal? I've read that music induces a calming effect both to the listener and the player. A natural stimulant for endorphin production!

We had stage band practise yesterday. Go Yixian n Qisheng. We can do it. I hope ? Thanks to trinetta who was on the piano! =].

and I think I cant go for band camp

reality check

2005-05-15T23:03:00.000+08:00

People often tell me to stop being so pessimistic. I try, but some(things + people) screw you up so badly its hard not to be.

I just need a cool beer and some nice music to chill to.
=).