I wonder whether I will be able to make much use of my passion for drumming in the future. I've always dreamed of being in a altrock band, doing tours and making albums. Ranon always tells me in the end, we'll all just be normal people, leading normal hum-drum lives, having kids, paying bills. I'm not saying this is bad though. I wonder if I'll ever get married with kids.

I just watched this disney movie - the rookie. And there was this piece of indispensible advice. Its ok to think/dream about what you want to do, until it is time for you to do what you're meant to do. I guess this applies here. In the end, I'll just be some other guy who lived and died.

Good things happen only to 1 in a million. Also, I dont think people who look happy doing what they are doing are actually that happy. I just hope I will be happy.

And this is a crappy song by Mcfly - obviously. that is stuck in my head.
Been so many nights now
I find myself thinkin about her no
Cause obviously she's out of my league
But how can I win
She keeps draggin me in
And I know I
Never will be good enough for her
No no
I never will be good enough for her

Thomas, you're 17 going on 18/

drummed at 8:10 PM;